I want a do over, if that's possible, I want a do over.
….five years ago!
I want a do over.
They say not everything that glitters is gold.
…mmmmm.
Do you know what living in hell is like?
It's like living in hell. Trying so desperately to be normal. To be normal to everyone and for everyone until normal doesn't feel normal anymore and you have lost all of the will to fight for yourself, slowly becoming something you are not. Feeling less and less. Getting colder and colder. Evolving into something you do not want to be.
Ever had that feeling of falling into loneliness?
Trying to wonder why you are so lonely? Living in a world where you feel nothing. Where silence is bliss! Where emotions lie to protect the real emotions, where all the faces look the same and the words are all pointless gibberish coming from all the same mouths. Where in this world, they have created, no one is safe.
...Anuh everything gud fi eat gud fi tawk...
I want a do over!
AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
Five years ago.
I want to be where the People once lived.
Real People.
I want to be amongst the humans that know when you are hurting, from pain so deep. And all they can offer is a hug then the world is instantly healing.
I want to be where the people are!
What happens to a dream deferred?
I had a dream. I dreamt I was away, far far away. In streets so strange and towns so vague.
I'm wishing I could stay so far far away. Protecting your soul means nothing if the other person is not into it.
You all gave me a memory. I accepted it. I enjoyed it. I lived in the moment of if. I accepted it.
What ever happen to your 'friends'?
One thing I have learnt over the last five years, and it's if you want love you have to give it to yourself, because no one in this hell on earth knows how to.
I want a do over, maybe soon, maybe today.
I WANT A DO OVER!
As the winter sky sets in,
Sleepless.
