Another year, oops! Im older...

So this is twenty eleven...damn! man when did it get to the double digits and why do I still have the urge to say welcome to 2009? This year started off fuzzy but kinda exciting and kinda feeling like great things are about to happen. I mean I am left of the middle to whatever it is that I should have been doing or should have accomplished by now, but I feel alright. I feel kinda crazy and sane at the same time. I feel like I need to be in complete isolation and really not even seeing people outside my job. Then at the same time I miss my old friends and is shying away from meeting new ones. I feel like the ones I use to love I don't have much in common with anymore and the things I use to need I don't remember. So I'm about to be 32 in 2months and a week and why not celebrate that like its everyday? There's so many things I want to do for this year and I want to be wide awake for them. GONE are the days when I am too lazy to think and feel, to show emotions as to how I am feeling. I am sick of those days. I feel human-less and that's not how I want to spend this year. I want to be human again. I think this is the first time in my lifetime I have decided to make resolutions for a year. I think, before, I was too afraid of setting goals like the rest of you human beings. I didn't want to be so cliche, frankly I didn't want to associate myself with the norm. I am still not comfortable being around you normal folks but I also have decided to give you guys a chance. I mean how bad can you be? You seem to be functioning fine with your 9-5 jobs, and your fancy clothes, and the boring social circles of always trying to fit in, always going to the gym to loose that pound or two that is so destined to stay with you for the rest of your life, and I say try eating for a change and stop worrying about the weight you gain. Better yet STOP telling me about it. Oh yea so I will try it the normal way for at least as long as I can endure. It may or may not be for the rest of the year. SHOOT I'm just gonna promise until the end of the month. So let the new year begins and if you don't really understand what it is that you are reading, rest assure you are not alone. This is the ramblings of a tired bartender who wishes the economy would pick up already so people can spend more and I can once again work less.....Happy New Year you suckers!!!