Life can be so scary, happy, sad, hopeful and lonely at times. It can be a bunch of nothing and at the same time a bunch of everything. I realized this as I was stuck in traffic in a cab heading to W48 17th st. It's just so simple, as everyone was waiting for me and me being late as usual. I mean I am always late and let's face it, sometimes I am late because I don't have the patience to wait for everyone else (oops secrets out), But most of the time I am late because I can't get myself out of the house.
But Thursday for some reason I was late and was really annoyed with myself because I somehow wanted to be nowhere else, but with my friends and certainly not stuck in traffic, on the FDR, listening to my cab driver telling me about the Christmas tree at Rockefeller Center! No I would rather be chilling for happy hour, drinking red wine and chatting!....Anyways as I drowned out the sounds of the chatty cabby and watch the NYC skyline, I somehow reminded myself of why I am alive and why this journey has brought me to this.
I know it's weird but this year, unlike many of the other years, has gone by so quickly and I can't remember a single thing that I have done besides working and sleeping, and it made me kinda sad to know that 2010 will only be remembered by that, oh yea and the constant whining about a stupid "relationship" that was D.O.A. to begin with. Urgh!!!
So I let all that go and as I was just sitting in the back of the cab I began to smile and I think this was probably one of the best smiles I had smiled all year, and someone as in the form of something told me it was gonna be a good night, or maybe that stupid song was on the radio. Either way I was happy and when I finally met up with my friends it was the best evening yet.
The wine was great, my friends were all smiling, the braised beef short ribs was fantastically delicious, the dancing at the gay club was superb ( I danced as if I was still in college and thought life was just plain fun), the night wasn't as cold as the other ones and the hot sauce that I added to the cup of noddles (yes I still eat them at the end of every great night) was just as amazing as the night itself. The lips (though quite not attached to the body I had hoped for) was the beginning of other things to come!
Someone told me 2 days prior that the body does what the mind tells it. I am starting to fully understand the concept. And to be told today that I am always chippy, but that I seemed a lot "chippier" is a great compliment….
…….So as I welcome 2011, I made a resolution and it's a resolution that I really hope I will keep. This is to coin Thursdays as HAPPY HOUR THURSDAYS, and this I look forward to in hopes of sharing this with Daphnee!!
Here's to Thursday and every one there after!!!
Happy Holidays!!!!
Sleepless
