Tuesday, April 10, 2012

eight for eight months and the fascinators!!!!!

I have two fantastic ideas that just hit me and that I would like to share with y'all. I am so excited I could burst, but I wont.

Firstly,

          So I tend bar in this wonderful city and it's no surprise that I come across some very fascinating people that I get the chance to meet everyday, and what better way to let you guys in on the secret but to interview them and see where it goes. I like to call this little segment "Fascinating New Yorkers between 25 and 35 years". These years are the best years to be apart of this city, while still figuring what you want in life or what should be happening to your life, as a matter of fact.

I am just so excited to meet these people, as much as I am to share them with y'all. So let me take you on a journey into the lives of people who share the subway with us, have lunch with us, shop at the same market with us and people who is also a stranger to us and maybe next time when we SEE them,  they will be more than just a face in the crowd.

Secondly,

     It was just brought to my attention that there is only eight more months left in the year. EIGHT!!!! YIKES! So much to accomplish and I am right on schedule with a lil free time to spare, SO,  this is where the fun part begins. Over the course of the next eight months, I am gonna engage in a dare with myself. Yes, a DARE. With this dare, I will challenge myself to do eight things that I have always wanted to do but never had the courage or time, prolly mostly courage. So yes I can feel the pit of my belly even as I say this. I am a little scared but liberation will be mine. So join me as I take on a whole new adventure in this wonderful life. After all, if you are not living on the edge then you are taking up waaaaay too much space.

Tune in and enjoy,
as always,
Sleepless.


     

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Here's to us, Here's to love......

Some moments are just perfect and life seems to be just fine and I found myself in such a moment on March 23, 2012. Yes my birthday.


 Listen, it hadn't been a great week. I was kicked in the gut by love again, and I wasn't quite ready to self-loathed, but also wasn't quite ready to get over it. So I took a trip with Chrissy and we headed to Ilion/The Adirondacks for a few days. This was amazing and the stars were aligned because with this trip came wisdom and serenity and the bonding of new and old friends and meeting amazing women that you can only read about and will only meet in the moments, where life is at a crossroad and when things seems to make no sense.


So we took a trip. It was great. We headed out at 8 am, and even though we were only coping on a mere two hours of sleep, nothing could stop Chrissy and I. We were happy, not even that obnoxious lady on the train or that big girl in the line who gave us the wrong info or the horse peeing and walking in the street. We were taking a break from the city and nothing could ruin that. We thought for sure we would be passed out as soon as the bus started moving, but to our surprise, we didn't catch a wink until later that night when we were safely tuck within the blankets of the house we stayed in, and we slept. Tuesday we took a trip into Utica where we not only took a  tour of Chrissy's old Alma Mater ( The Munson-Williams-Practor) but we also catch a tour of the Munson Mansion which was very historic but also tragic in a way. Wednesday we made our way up to the Adirondacks. This place is fucking amazing and it was just so fresh and peaceful. I loved every moment of it, especially when we spent about an hour by the river just watching the ice blocks float on by. BLISS!

Ok so back to the issue at hand. My birthday. I was perfect. It was perfect. It was just a gathering for the people I wanted to be there, and so the invitations were sent out as such. I wanted to make sure, that on this perfect day, no drama was to be had and that it was. We went, we ate and we chatted and we drank and we ate some more.  We did a little dance and got down some. It is moments like these I feel the most alive, like an invincible being. There was nothing outrageously done, but there were smiles and laughter and great conversations. What more can a 33 year old ask for? I say not a damn thing, but to have this much love surrounding me for the whole year and the rest as a matter of fact. And for those who couldn't be there, I aint mad atcha, We will catch up soon. All I wanna say is, when you find good company in life cherish it.
   I will leave you guys with one of the best birthday wishes of all times.
               "Wish you JOY, the one I recognized two years ago sitting next to you.
                 LOVE which is usually somewhere close, but that bitch can't hide too long.
                   HEALTH so you could drink longer.
                   MONEY to buy a ticket to Europe and be my guest!
Lovely, crazy Taniesha - most of all, I wish you more moments like those on the rooftop. So, visit me!"
                                                    Thanks Nevena. I cried!

Love, peace and happiness and 'til we meet again. Sleep well!
Sleepless.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

No Woman, No cry.....Don't Shed No Tears!





It is taking so much of me to say this. But I feel if I don't, then I'm not gonna be well.

It's been awhile and I am completely broken. I have been trying to be well.

I NEED to be well.

How can I be honest, without being angry or feeling remorse?
How can I be honest, and wanting freedom the most?
How can I be honest, and let you know this is not FOR you?
How can I be honest, and let you know this is true?

Set me free!

I am beginning to realize just how good it feels to feel. I'm finally getting there. I honestly want you to know that this has EVERYTHING to do with you, and I need your help to get ME there.


How can I be honest? How do I get to say these words?
How can I just be honest, and have you not interrupt me?
How can I just be honest, and have you show me you care to hear?
How can I be honest and be free?
How can I be honest and have YOU set me free?
How can I be honest and have no regrets?
How can I be honest?......

...Goodbye!

As always and forever,
Sleepless.


Saturday, December 3, 2011

In Honor Of WORLD AIDS DAY. December 1.

Yeah, yeah I know I am a little late, but what can I say a girl's been busy. I was recently educating myself, as always, on the interweb and came across some very useful info that I want to share with y'all. I am not big on plagiarizing but I thought if I sendthebody.com you to the website you would simply not go. So I brought the information to you.

This article I found on thebody.com Quite an interesting page. Anyways, here goes:


10 Common Fears About HIV Transmission:


10. Swimming in a Pool

You'd be amazed how many people write to our experts worried about HIV entering their bodies via blood or urine in a pool. HIV is not transmitted through water, period -- it doesn't matter whether you're standing in it, bathing in it or drinking gallons of it. (That also goes for hot tubs, showers, the sink at the gas station -- you name it!)


9. Coughing or Sneezing

Many people still find danger in simply being in the vicinity of someone who is HIV positive. But there's no need to be afraid of being near people with HIV!
HIV is not an airborne disease and cannot be transmitted even if someone with HIV coughs or sneezes directly in your face or onto your food. If it were that easy to pass along HIV, the number of people living with the virus today would probably be in the billions, not the millions.

8. Chewing Gum

Whether it's merely touching an old piece of chewed-up gum or transferring a wad of it from your HIV-positive friend's mouth to yours, gum does not represent an HIV risk. HIV is not transmitted through saliva; this is why you can also share food, drinks or utensils with HIV-positive people and not worry about becoming infected.

7. Mosquito Bites

What if a mosquito bites an HIV-positive person and then feasts on you? If a mosquito can transmit malaria, it can transmit HIV too, right? Wrong! Malaria is a very different kind of disease than HIV.
Even if HIV could survive long enough in the extracted blood, there would be so little HIV in there that you'd have no risk of being infected by it if you were the mosquito's next victim -- even if you squashed that sucker on your arm, blood-filled stomach and all.

6. Public Restrooms

Did you forget to put down toilet paper on the seat before using the potty? No need to run out for an HIV test.
Even if a disgusting bodily fluid left on the seat were somehow able to get into your bloodstream (which is virtually impossible as it is -- and no, "up-splashing" does not put you at risk either), the HIV within that fluid wouldn't survive long enough outside of the body to harm you. Not only that, but there wouldn't be enough HIV in that small amount of fluid to pose an infection risk.

5. Eating at a Restaurant

For some reason, restaurants make the imagination run wild. People write in with an endless string of scenarios, including a chef's accidental slip of the knife, a waitress with a scratch on her hand, and a piece of food that briefly fell off someone's plate and touched the table.
But here are the facts: In all of those infectious fantasies, there simply wouldn't be enough HIV present to pose a risk. (In most of them, there's zero chance that HIV would be present at all.) In addition, HIV doesn't live long enough outside of the body for any restaurant scenario to carry a risk -- that is, unless you run off and have unprotected sex with the waiter.

4. Getting a Lap Dance

Oh, if only we had a dollar tucked in our G-string for every person who's written in after a visit to a strip club. (And it's not solely the clients who fear the wrath of the lap!) Lap dances -- and most other strip club encounters -- bear absolutely no risk for one huge reason: at least one of you is wearing clothing on top of your happy parts, and no bodily fluids are being exchanged. (Even if you think you felt a little bit of wetness on your skin, that doesn't count as "exchanging fluids.")
With no opportunity for an exchange of bodily fluids, there is nothing to fear.

3. Sharing a Drinking Glass

Pure and simple: Saliva is not one of the four bodily fluids that can transmit the virus. That list is reserved for blood, semen, vaginal secretions and breast milk. So unless you were drinking a large, frothy glass of any of those, you have nothing to worry about.

2. Shaking Hands

Shaking hands is considered "casual contact" and absolutely does not put you at risk for contracting HIV. It doesn't matter if the shaking involved hands (yours, theirs or both) that were peeling, sweaty, dirty, or had cuts on them.
The same goes for other common concerns, such as hugging someone, being scratched or even being bitten (unless the bite is very deep, meaning it went all the way through your skin -- and even then, any potential risk would be extremely small).

1. Kissing

Of all the issues our experts are asked about, none is the source of more unwarranted freak-outs than kissing. The act of kissing on its own carries no risk for HIV. It doesn't matter whether it's a peck on the cheek or deep tongue-on-tongue action. (And no, you can't transmit HIV through cold sores.)
The only kissing scenario that would involve even a remote risk would be where fresh blood was exchanged -- and unless you're dating a vampire, that kind of thing is extremely unlikely to happen.

Was this article not enough to ease your fears? For more information, please visit our "Ask the Experts" Q&A forum or read this comprehensive fact sheet.



Once again I did not write this article and in no way do I wish to take credit for it. This is solely to educate the less educated.

I hoped you enjoy and can breathe now. I will go back to watching Dawson's Creek. I know, pretty lame for a Saturday night right? Well I don't feel like leaving the comfort of my warm bed/room/apt.

Good Night and remember whatever you do, it's okay to kiss a random stranger tonight, unless he turns out to be a serial killer and then you are on your own. HA HA!

Niters.
Sleepless









Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The Last Year: 365 1/4

It's been a whole year since I started this blog and I have to say the last year was perfect. I think the last year seems like how life should be.

I have never been more confused in my life,  yet more determined to see my dreams through.
I have never lost so many friends, yet somehow becoming closer to the few that matters.
I have never seen so many different sides to a person,  yet finding the qualities worth keeping.
I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE CONFUSED,  BUT YET SO SURE ABOUT WHAT I NEED FROM LIFE.

I have gotten so many job offers this year,  but somehow managed to settle into a familiar place.
I said goodbye to old roommates and welcome new ones that seems to fall right into place.
I said goodbye to old lovers, met new ones but somehow realized that this journey, that I am on,  I must go alone.

There have been a few regrets but they only motivates me!

For the first time in my life I know what it is I truly want.
I know which career path I will choose.
I know where I want to live.
I know what it is I want in a guy.

I now live to not compromise my morals and integrity.

So why do I feel so far away from it all? This is a strange feeling,  one that I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN, but one that I am excited about. I feel like I finally hit the fork in the road at the crossroad, you know when you're stuck between a rock and a hard place? I have this overwhelming feeling that this is it and that everything is gonna fall into place right after this moment. There are these butterflies in my belly that I can't explain. It's a constant feeling of wanting to smile all day with this great dread. I feel relaxed and anxious. I can't seem to get rid of the butterflies. I don't want them to stop. I love the feeling of not knowing what's next.

I love it all. WISH ME LUCK.

I feel like this whole year, if it didn't teach  me much, it taught me how to let go and move on.
It taught me how to forgive and forget.
It taught  me that not every battle is mine to fight and that sometimes my place is in the bleachers cheering everyone else on.
It taught me to look at moments like these and enjoy them and not having to analyze them.
It taught me peace.

I am now living for myself and not vicariously through everyone's perception of me.
I am happy!

So whats next you might ask?

Life as it pertains to me.........

P.s. my computer was harmed in the making of this blog. LOL!
Niters!

And don't let the bed bugs bite!
Sleepless.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

The List :You would see the biggest gift would be from me

When life hands you lemon, the natural reaction is to make lemonade right?

But what if you can't make lemonade and what if you don't want to?

I find that when life hands ME lemon, is when I call a few of MY best gals and talk. It's so funny how talking is underrated at times. I know coz I hit a low the other day and who would have thought that having a few phone conversations with my friends, who have no hidden agenda but to console me, would be the answer.

I did!


It's amazing how we have all the holidays in the world, but never a Friendship Day!

I think WE should all have a day where friendship is celebrated, yay!!!!!!

A National Holiday like Christmas, where you do nothing but celebrate the one time you choose to have such wonderful people in your life. The ones who are there for you when even your Mama can't solve your problems.

The ones who know you inside out.

The ones that can actually call you at 3 in the morning to tell you that they just met a guy who is perfect for you, ha! (Well, I prolly have done and will do that..he he, sorry guys).

The ones who believe that your tears are just another way to get to know you better.
The ones who you can say to, can you check to see if my boobs look great in this dress and they honestly tell you to go change.
The ones who DON'T just call you to bitch about the bad day they are having without giving a second thought that you could be having the same.
The ones who DON'T emotionally drain you with their problems, and then never wants to listen to yours.
The ones who knows how many people are in your family and if you should ever need them to fill out a paper, you know with confidence that they know your middle name, and date of birth, without having to go on Facebook.


I have been blessed with a few and trust me honey, that's all you will ever have time for in this lifetime.

A few great people that will be forever your best friends. Your Sex And The City pals, your Golden Girls.

So I take this moment to say I appreciate ya! And yes we will have a National Friendship Day where we all go out and paint the town red (and Kate no running home early. Yes we all know you are not use to being out this late, but it's National Friendship Day) lol!

Brunch it if we must, but that's gonna be the best day, when it's just not about the individual being (i.e. birthdays), but the whole bunch of  We's (long Island style), Ha ha... Cameca, Daphnee, Kim, Kate and Nedra (We all know who my bridesmaids are now, Fuck!).



I appreciate ya! And in the words of Kim, I appreciate y'all! Thank you for being there for me when my lemon needs THAT much sugar to make the lemonade perfect.

Thank you for being a friend
                                                   Traveled down the road and back again
                                                 Your heart is true your a pal and a confidant.


                                                            And if you threw a party
                                                    Invited everyone you ever knew
                                       You would see the biggest gift would be from me
                               And the card attached would say thank you for being a friend.

P.s. I was gonna do 'The List' in order, but when in the hell have I ever conformed to order.
Have a good night sleepy heads. I am gonna go watch Felicity!

As always,

Sleeplesss.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

The List

Friends,  they are among me, everywhere. I am  there for them and, sometimes they disappear when I really need them. They tell me all their dirty lil secrets and sometimes I can't help but  to share some of my own. They always seems to be a phone call away. I can't help but wonder, after seeing the new Facebook homepage 'The List' that I put my friends in, whether I want to or not. Something about google plus  has got me thinking in terms of "Circles", pun intended. Anyways not to stray from the topic at hand,  I will now explore the options that my friends fit into. I have, the right time at the right place buddies, the shopping buddies, the work buddies, the drinking buddies, the acquaintances and  the very close friends.

I truly believe that these people are in my life to enrich it and to help me grow.

1) The Right time at the right place buddies: Do you ever have a person in your life that just happen to be at a place when you really need them? They somehow don't fit into my personal everyday life. I don't have their phone number. I ask them the same questions again and again. Questions like "where do you live again?" "how old are you again?" "what do you do again?", and so on and so forth. I literally know nothing about them other than the fact that they hang out at the same bar/restaurant/library/bookstore etc at the same exact time that I am there. Conversations are usually very friendly and the more I see them the more the subjects become personal. We talk for hours, but if it wasn't for the location I probably wouldn't have  known this person existed. My close friends don't know them and I feel kinda weird and really don't know how to introduce them if I see them elsewhere. Its okay. Everyone at some point have that person in their life and if for some reason you get embarrassed because you dont know how to introduce them to your actual friends, don't worry. The relationship is mutual, just remember, you are that person for someone else,  and just leave it at that.

....to be continued...

Sincerely,
Sleepless.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

September 26, 2011(sober karaoke)

Day 9th..

P.s. Why is the cab driver asking me "how much and pay?"  "huh" "how much and pay?" Gimme my change and let me tip you.This is not Chinatown and I am not trying to buy a fake Fendi!  This is also after he tried to convince me that I should take the Billyburg bridge instead of the Manhattan. Dude I happen to know where I live and I am reeeeally sober!. It takes me 6 mins to get to my house. Take the route I told you. So what you are having a slow night? (this is what he told me btw). I am not trying to contribute to your pay check more than I should. The Billyburg will cost me $15 AS opposed to the $10 cab fare I am use to paying via Manhattan, literally #ripoffcabman.


Other than that my day off was the bomb!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Time is of the essence.

As I watched Bill Rancic trekking to Haiti to help kids and families in need, I asked myself, what is it that I am doing to change the world? What am I doing to change myself? Time to be brave, time for a change. I have the power to accomplish anything. My problems are nothing, my problems are miniscule, my problems are fixable. Open up and live. Life is definitely too short and ever changing. No time for depressions or self-loathing. Be self motivated and make wonders work. Start enjoying the things I can't change. What am I waiting for? WAKE UP AND LIVE!!!!! Tomorrow starts today!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

They say time heals everything, but I'm still waiting...

So hey I just wanna check in to make the few people that read these blogs know that I am still alive. I have just been waay toooo busy for any human being possible, but you know what, I am not complaining. It could be worst. I now manage to have myself two jobs that basically take up all my days and if that isn't enough I told my crazy self that its now the right time to start a business. So yes super busy. I sometimes, wonder how you guys are doing and what's good in your lives. The few I see these days, well, you know whats up and for the others then feel free to leave me a lil comment and what's been going on with you and also the things that are bugging you and your happy moments as well. I have to say one thing though my life has changed drastically over the last two months!. I think I have gained 5lbs, so I guess the living must be easy! Some say I needed those 5lbs, but please, dont let me get started on those few! lol. Hope the summer is going well and all is great! I must return now to the lil five hours of sleep I may get before I pull myself off to work!
Peace, love, joy and happiness!
Sleepless.